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Thursday, November 17, 2005

When is enough enough

When is enough enough?! I was asking myself this the other day in regards to so many events in my life this past week and a half. At the ripe old age of 24, I just had my first encounter with racism, against myself. This all started at the beginning of the year when I was most involved with a student organization. We started to discuss political issues that involved the border, this is when it all began.

These discussions would snowball into complaints about people of Mexican decent, and the telling of raciest jokes in my presence, about my heritage. I was starting to feel hurt, and a little confused, I mean are we not all attending the same university, working similar jobs, and in the same organization?! I was a little hurt, but like an idiot I did nothing, but just cry and then think that I was over reacting to the whole thing.

Then the day came, where I felt singled out, and the group intended to do this, biased on my race alone. They asked me if my grandfather and my father made honest livings in this country that was so nice to not send them back. I was crushed, these were once people who I hung out with, and who I worked side by side with on political campaigns. It seemed like I was only good enough for them when I was working to help them, but now, I saw how they were. These people have not one compassionate bone in their bodies, and I am not just saying that because I am bitter, these people didn't want hurricane Katrina Victims to stay in our dorms, just because of their race, they thought they would be more likely to commit crimes. There are so many more events that proves my point, but there is not enough time, and I don't want to say too much either.

I didn't cry this time, no, I decided to fight back maybe. I though these ideas were long gone, these ideas of superiority, but I guess not. All I want to know is when is enough enough?!